I had two boyfriends in high school, and I was kind of pushed into both relationships by my friends. Even though I liked both people, I had seriously considered dating neither of them. At first I liked a boy and my friends told us that we should date because I had never had a boyfriend. I agreed because I realized it might seem strange that I was 15 and had never had a boyfriend before. He was very kind and intelligent, but very "two-faced", and ended up cheating on me and being quite emotionally abusive. The second boy was very intelligent and had an interesting sense of humor, but he also ended up being incredibly emotionally abusive. Both were poor ideas on my part and very scary psychologically, especially considering that in both relationships I was struggling with my eating disorder, depression, and anxiety. When I got to college I met Sam, my current boyfriend, and we plan to get married when we graduate. Sam had to help me deal with a lot of harmful thought processes that developed from those relationships, even though I had dealt with a lot of them before I got to